Writings
one
Excuse Me me, i think that you're beautiful
Yeah?
Yeah.
You think? You don't know?
I don’t know you enough. Pretty face, beauty’s the person
Who says I'm a person?
What do you mean?
What makes you think, that I, am a person?
You look like a person. You talk like a person. That's gotta count for something, I think.
Covers and books, something about covers and books. I'm not a person.I am a bird.I fly through life and I shit on everything. I harass people at beache and i scream for hours, Hours. I am a bird. I have wings and thin legs and a terrible beak. That's why I wear this scarf, it covers the beak. I am a bird you see? A bird
What kind of bird? I've always been fond of pelicans
Yeah?
Yeah
She laughed and began to unravel her scarf. The moonlight shot through the window like light from a moon. How had he not seen it before? The lack of legs. The fact that her clothes seemed to fit like a bed sheet thrown over a helium balloon. She really was a bird. She was a seagull. He hated seagulls
“I hate seagulls”
Yeah?
yeah
old friend
You know youre going crazy right?
Ha. who decides that? Who decides crazy.
The doctors do. The doctors and the regular people of the world, man. Youre looing it man.
HA. I never had it to loose, brother,
You did dude. You had a chance and you didnt take it. A few of them really
You decided to just live, plan nothing. The thing about just living is,
You need to know what you want your life to look like.
You understand?
To live and not know why is fine, as long and you know how. You never figured out that how. You’re working on the why. And thats another way to live
You can live without a how, but only if you got a why.
You don't have that man
You better find it fast
if you got neither, you got nothing
You get crazy.
You've got crazy
Yeah?
Yeah
A big war is coming
Yeah
Yeah
Theres bugs everywhere. On my socks in my shoes in my hair and my skin and my head from my ears theve crawled in me i feel them. Inside of my blood i feel them biting me crawling. Always at night. And night its the crawling that keeps me awake not the coffee the music or antyhrting else its not passion or problems the BUGS it s the BUGS in my blood, do you know what i mean. Something i dont hink you understand me. Its there. In me and in you and in everybody. Why do you think bugs are made of man? Its the SAME THING its the same damn thing that were made of. The universde. The big thing. The thing that everything comes from. Thats all of us. Bugs and leopards life and life and living. BUGS. ive made them out of me, the matter i had available to me for my use. Its my body. If i want to turn some of this matter i was gicven into bugs and let them crawl all over me. Under my skin and my eyes and inside my blood and my heart. Its my goddamn right to do so. What are you doing with yours, huh? What are you doing with all this matter you have been gifted? Youve chosen to be nothing but you. Where are the friends in your head? Youre alone
Yes im alone. Im alone and im sane. I have my sanity. Youve lost yous.
Do you understand?
Do you know who i am?
Yeah
` who am I
I dont know
Yeah
Im here every day
Yeah?
Yeah
Lemon
What teh difrene between an oran and a lemon? One is colore orange and the othr i colored lemo. An orange gets pulled over by the cops
Do you know how fast you were going
Not fast enough
Yea. too fast. 60 over. too fast
I got someere to be
Wheres that?
Somewher IMPOORTANT. You woudnt get it. Im an orange. Im an orange and i know how to speak and understand english. And i know how to drive. Do you know how rare that is dude? There ar so few talking driving oranges. Im going somewhere important
Wheres that?
I cnt tell you.
*the cop pulls out his juicer. He keeps a juicer on hand fo just such occasions
YOURE GOPNNA FUCJING TELL ME. YOURE GONNA FUCKING TELL ME RIGHT NOW. WHERE ARE YOU GOING?
` TO THE JUICE PARTY
I KNEW IT
You never invite me. You nevr ionvote mr to the juice party. Why? Because im a human? I just want to hang out. I want to come to the juice npartioes but you never let me. Its not fair. Blood is a juice, in a way. I have bnlood. Let me in to your juice party
Welcome to the Fishbowl
The fish pulled out a gun. He pulled out a gun and pointed it at me.
What the hell man? I thought we were friends
Friends? Were not friends.
I'm a fish and i have a gun. I don't want to be anyone's friend. I want to swim and shoot people. Fuck you.
Anything you want, anything, really, I'll give you all that I've got. Please, don't do this, please.
You kept me in that bowl man. You kept me in that bowl for years and years. During my prime.. I could have been something. I could have thrown football for the big leagues and rocked the stages, really been something. I could have gone to school and learned to ride a bike and learned to paint in France. i could have went to France and tried the wine and and fell in love, i never got to fall in love. You kept me down, man. You kept me there in that bowl with nothing but reefs, plastic reefs and a rock and some sand i counted the grains of sand in that bowl. I counted all 48, 466 grains of sand. You left me like this for YEARS and you never gave me the chance to TRY something, anything. And now here we are. The flood was coming.
For years the flood was coming and now its here. And i have the gun.
You're in my world now, bitch. Welcome to the fishbowl